Tuesday was one year since you died. I still can barely comprehend that you left. I no longer cry every night, and that makes me sad. I need you so much, almost every day.
Petunia had her gallbladder out last week, and has had trouble with infection since then. She did get disability and we are so grateful for that.
I got my left eye operated on for cataracts and got the toric lens implant! Next week, I'll get my right eye. The difference in my vision is very wearing and tiresome.
The ManChild's ManCub will be one in a few weeks. I hate that Dad never got to see my grandchildren. Mom isn't very interested in mine, just CW's.
I talked to Mom last night - she actually called me! How great is that?! She said she cried most of Tuesday. I wish she had something to occupy her time, that didn't stress her out, make her angry, or take advantage of her. That pretty much rules out everything.
How come I never feel you close? Am I concentrating too hard? What can I do? All the NDE things I read talk about relaxing and being open....maybe my mind is simply too full.
